Sportster, I agree with Lost, you should go have fun doing things you did before if that is what you have fun doing. I never saw my H with anyone, but if I did, I know I would have just fallen apart. Just the thought of him with OW was enough to make me sick. So if you should see him, you either smile and and keep your head up or leave immediately. Whichever works best for you. Just keep the patience going. I think the 4-day wait period is probably good. It sounds like he's doing the contacting and that is the way it should be. Just keep trying to end any contact from your end.
Lost, I can totally understand your backslide and the feelings of insecurity. Just keep reminding yourself, he is there with you. You are the best and you keep being the person he wants to be with. Try to swallow that feeling of having to talk about OW. Of course, he helped her out, he thought he was going to stay with her. Then he came to his senses! You have to let that go. Don't snoop, it just makes you ASSume things! I know you want to be reassured, but they don't want to have to do that. That is one of the reasons mine finally left, he couldn't deal with the insecurities and the constant having to reassure me that everything was ok. We have to reassure ourselves and love ourselves instead of trying to get our feelings of good self-worth from others. It's going to take some work. But you are doing well and I know you will succeed!
