Sportster Believe me all you can do is your best. About going and doing things and worried about running into H there and him thinking you were there looking for him, dont worry about that I mean come on you guys did things together because you both enjoyed them so dont stop doing something you do enjoy just because your afraid H will see you and wonder why you are there, frankly its none of his business. And yes I would probably leave to if I saw him with someone else because talk about putting salt in the wounds. When H and I were seperated during 7/4 I didnt go to watch the fireworks because of being afraid he brought her there and I couldnt bare seeing them together. I had a big backslide last night, no fighting or anything but we were going over what bills he needed to pay and I saw one for tire kingdom and the balance was like $1400 and I was like man what did you buy (I know he bought tires for his truck back in July $800) and he said "she" needed tires for her van and I was like excuse me so that meant you just had to pay for them for her??? He said she didnt ask me to and I said ok here is what she said man I need tires for my car but dont have no $$ right now and up you step and say here I can get them for you so she didnt directly ask you to buy them but she knew you would if she played the I have no $$ thing and now here you are having to pay off for how ever long it will take to pay it off while she doesnt have to worry about it and has new tires to boot. Also I called him yesterday at work and it went to VM and called him a bit later and he said yeah he didnt hear the phone ring he was on the machine but he got my message said a stupid solicator called him though, Snooping me looked at his phone and recent calls now her # still is there because she called the other day but I asked him if she called and he said no and I didnt see a # for the solicator that supposedly called him??? I was pretty restless last night and he asked what was wrong and he said your insecurites are kicking in again and I said just a bit and he said what about and I just said stupid stuff I never asked him didnt want to start talking about it at 10 at night. Woke up this morning and he said I tossed and turned all night and said sorry and he asked so what were you thinking about and I said nothing really just that my head is not listening to my heart again and he said I thought you fixed that and I said yeah I did but it reared its ugly head again and he started fooling with me and tickling and holding me which was nice. I finally did tell him that her calling kinda made me a bit insecure and he said it was actually good for him and I was like huh???????? He said yeah talking to her and there was nothing not a thing and I said where you wondering about that and he said no he had no doubts about being home and never wondered about if he still had feelings for her (he said he did wonder if she was ok but that was it) but when she called he said he really felt nothing and thats why it was good for him. My question is if she did call again would he not tell me because he is afraid my insecurites will kick in when he knows there is no reason for them to so to save me from backstepping?? What do you all think?? Lost
