GOOd goin Lost!! You guys are doin sooooo good, I too am jealous. If you read above , last time we talked was Sunday and there has been no metion of a re-scheduling of our dinner date. It was an ok conversation, ended in him calling me by my "pet name" which I replied back by his. I wanna call him soooo bad today, but called MIL instead. She is such a sweetie. Everyone I know is telling me it OVER, move on, start planning a life without him. But ya know -for someone who was spewing such venom 2 sundays ago, then is calling me by my pet name the last two times we talked, and I still have not seen any papers served to me.I cannot give up. Maybe I am hangin on by a thread here, but I am gonna hold onto it. What do all of you think? I wanna call him on Friday because of what he said in the phone call about "well haven't heard from you for a while so I figured I'd call". Is it safe to test the waters here? I mailed him a birthday card in October, he never mentioned it. I mailed him some magazines and a funny card I made -last week, he never mentioned it . Do you think I should just e-mail instead? I have been having a couple of bad days, crying alot and stuff. I just really miss him being here and being able to hug or kiss him any time I want. I try to remember all the bad crap that happened too, and if I don't believe me my friends and family DO remind me. I sure hope he is learning some things out there that will make what happened to us 21 years ago and me lying to protect him/ our R ,seem like a pretty stupid idea for leaving. I am so afraid he will "like his life the way it is, he is at ease with himself, and I don't have to think about what you did with that guy " a permanent basis. I don't wanna live my life without my H. We had such good plans for our life together-travel, stuff like that. I pray every night that he will come back a healed person-no bitterness, trusting, and realizing that he wants ME in his life, not OW, partying every weekend, and that what I did was a sign that something was wrong in our marraige way back then but we were to young and ill equipped to deal with it. Thanks for being here for me. You don't realize how happy I am for you that you got a second chance. Hold on to him and NEVER let go.You have learned so much. Remember what I said a while back that YOU gotta be the "other woman" in his life as well.Anyway, any ideas? I am at a loss of how datk to be-tomorrow is 2 momths that he left...