Hey Lost, I was off here all weekend,I was a total basket case by Saturday, he STILL hadn't called. I ended up crying alot on Saturday, calling friends,then having some family come over on Saturday night.Sunday went to see "shall we dance" good thing theatre is dark, no one can see the tears. GREAT movie by the way! Richard Gere is amazing. I drove around a while , then came home. Surprise- H calls and talks for about 30 minutes!!! Told me a little more about his bad day that made him break the date but still says there was a bunch of other stuff, none of which got talked about ...So I said "glad its all better" and he says "yeah, I got it all worked out-for now". Guess that was the bait I was supposed to take, but I didn't. He did tell me that he didn't want to spoil the time by being so crabby. I told him that he could talk to me anytime and he answered "Yeah, I know"- really soft like he knew I still cared and wished he could tell me(or am I reading into it). Mostly it was all chit chat and upbeat on my part. I agree that guys do not always think the way we do, so thats why he did not schedule a new date.I did tell him I was off one day this week and he was like" Hmmm, What are you doing on your day off?" I felt like telling him why do you want to know- but instead I told him just a check up . He did not suggest we meet or anything. We ended the call ok, with him saying" well, I just called cause I hadn't heard from you in a while" (yea- like since you broke the date- I figured he should call ME) . "Then he said I'll talk to ya soon, bye honey," all soft and nice like he did when we were together. I love hearing that in his voice, but then I get days of no calls. Its confusing. This being patient stuff SUCKS. THis weekend was soooo hard and everytime I think I have the GAL PMA thing down and I am keepin busy, WHAMMO- I have a dream about him (you know "those dreams") or he calls and gives me this little smidge of hope and I backslide on myself (so far no backsliding really in front of him)Sounds like you and Ami are doing ok these days. About tryin something new and different in the bedroom--- RIGHT ON! yup, nothin beats the smile on their face after you tell 'em what you wanna try,and then nothin beats the feeling of purely knocking their socks off. Its definetly a power pleasur trip for sure! Every ones bedroom life gets stale now and then, we've gone through that . As a matter of fact its weird some of the nicest interludes we had were right before he left, as if it meant more somehow.We were kinder, cared more, took care to make the other feel really good. Grrrreat, now I REALLY miss him tonight. Well girls dedicate your next one to me,OK?
