Stillgrowing,
I dont want to give up on the affection I guess I just didnt realize before how much I like giving it you know until it was gone. But I guess the parts in intamicy I get insecure about. And getting personal here, like when we ML and if he closes his eyes (not while kissing other times) I think is he thinking of her. Also last night while ML I was kissing him and he said we dont have to kiss all the time and that freaked me a bit. (of course afterwards when I mentioned it because it upset me a bit he said what were you doing right before I said that and I was like OOOHHH ok well I dont like you kissing me after you do that to so I understand )And then there is his lack of touching intimately with me, then I think before we Seperated I was the typical receive all and give none so maybe he is "testing" me to see if that part of me has changed you know?? But I still wonder is it because she was better you know all those mind games, but just have to get over that with time
LostInFl