I have lost my soulmate to OW

[AMiTHEOW]

Lost that is great. Your C also sounds pretty good as well, I totally agree with her suggestion.

Yes, I know what you mean regarding those esteem issues and the panic attacks. Your H seems to be very helpful though in helping you through this. That is a very good sign. Please try hard not to bring up OW too often though ok? I did that even when my H was calm about it(after 1st sep), but I think I overdid it somewhat.

As for my H I got a chance to hear his voicemail. Remember he hasn't been to that state in over a year. He has "NEW" women from there calling his VM already. Why? He has been there now for almost 3 weeks, and already he has a slew of women calling him (not ones from before). Hearing OW #1 on there just about killed me. She didn't say much on the voicemail, but I did notice she tried calling 2x (2hrs apart) and he ignored the call. (must've been with another OW) See I think its different with my H. My H's single buddies are there and they party all the time and things like that. Its not like he is just with OW full time. I just don't know. He is acting like he hates me now.

If you read my sitch you will see what has actually taken place. He is not calling anymore AT ALL, and told me that we have nothing to talk about when we did speak last Fri. We were just together for nearly a month, having contact daily. All of a sudden he just changed. Lost, I am so fearful that he will "fall back in love" with OW #1 and forget about me. Do I sound ridiculous?

I'm sorry for venting, I am just very scared and have no one I can turn to here.