Lost, thanks so much for replying I am looking up to you these days I guess. You're one of the ones who made it outta this . I was debating wether or not to even call my H today and ask about the dinner tomoorow, and my text alert goes off this morning. Its H!! "Do you want to meet me for dinner or somewhere tonight. Call me when you can". My head was spinning, and I felt a little sick. I called back and acted all friendly like he calls everyday or something. What was this? I call ed him and he was all nice .I thought we were just going to meet, but I he suggested coming to get me and it was "no problem at all". Ok, so NOW what? I called my friend and asked what the hell is this now, and she says first "there is something wrong with him-why is he doing this? it could be one of two things , he feels really bad about what happened the other night or he's just keepin you stringing along so you don't get all legal on him." Either way I gotta act "as if" and be all light and breezy friend-like . I am working on about 2 hours sleep from last night, so it'll be tough.I don't think anyone can blame me for being cautious. This past Sunday's call sounded like it was going to be a good day too, and look what happened! I still think he is pretty confused. I DID find out that he will not be bringing a date to his family for Thanksgiving, and he told his Mom that he did go to dinner at her house, but they are not dating. Ok, so here we go on the roller coaster ride again where my stomach is in knots till he gets there, and not knowing what will happen. I may be an idiot but i still pray every day that he will come back and say I was an idiot, I really overblew this thing it really wasn't about your past at all,lets try and make us better. He is coming at about 5pm tonight. I'll let ya know how it goes. Good for your H going to C!!!! Sounds like he really is committed to making this work Lost! Ya gotta know you guys are in my prayers too!
