Quote: Just journaling... Im really missing my H right now and I figured I better sit here and post rather then fall victim to calling him i want to hear his voice so bad right now its killing me, sitting here in tears trying to work through this moment. I just want to talk to him but I know I cant this is so hard I dont know if I can do this much longer I want my H back so bad I literaly feel like a part of me is dying. Everyone says how strong of a person I am but I dont know how much longer I can hold up being strong. I just want to collapse with all this pain Im feeling I feel so alone and abandoned at the moment by the one person I thought would never abandon me. I put my whole body and soul into loving this person and now they are gone and probably gone for good. I just dont know if H will ever want to try and get his family back and Im so close to just totally giving up that he will want us back too. I just wish he would realize what a great family we had and that IT IS worth try to save!!! Ok feeling a bit better not much but a bit LostInFl
Oh my Goodness, LIF, you wrote my heart verbatim...I asked H to leave Monday after 6 months of A w/ OW, we were just starting to not like each other. I am soooo lonely. He does call me re the kids and to see how I am, but it's not having him back.
I wish I could offer words of encouragement, but maybe read Xalells thread on Newcomers. He has pretty much busted his seemingly hopeless sitch. There are few other ones that have come out of the bottomless pit recently and are looking good. That is the only thing keeping me going right now.
We know what is right and what our M's can be, but H's just don't want to accept it. I am sorry you are feeling this, I wish this feeling on no one. - mem
