Mem Yeah I did my best not to think about "them" last night me and sister in law (my brothers wife) went for our nightly walke and she has been a very good friend to talk to. I was also able to get into see my therapist yesterday and she wants me to start coming in on a weekly basis again to get me through the next couple of weeks. And yeah I try not to read into his short but sweet email because before when he wanted to be nasty in an email he would without a problem so maybe that drive to NC gave him some serious time to think and now that he is living with OW each day he will start comparing and anaylizing what he is doing (probably not even realizing he is doing it) becuase he knew I took that step that he thought I wouldnt take and now that the 1 woman that was the stable one in his life is now an uncertainty there is no guarentee that I will be there to stand beside him now will give him lots to think about. The guys here at work I told about his email response and said he is probably all happy now that the end of our M is in sight and they said hell no you just ruined his weekend. Im sure he brought the papers for OW to "look over" and they will discuss it and she will ask him about his feelings about it and blah blah and he will definitly be thinking alot in the next few days. And I said well hopefully thats the case and this is the reality of his decision kicking in. But he is there now for good and so I have to try and stop thinking about what they are doing and just go about my days. LostInFl
