Lost I am sorry to hear this...but I am glad that you managed not to breakdown in front of your husband! Whatever happens you will look back on that and be proud of the way you comported yourself. There were a few moments when I pretty much prostrated myself in front of my husband and begged him not to leave me...when I think back on those moments the person I am most angry with is myself! I think back to those times and wish I had done exactly what YOU just did! But I have to forgive myself for that and move on. He may or may not come back...but if he does come slinking back he will remember that you were calm and in control of yourself...And even if he doesn't come back he does not have the satisfaction of a memory of you crying as he walked out the door.
Losing him does not matter, it is YOU who will be found and cherished. -Joy Luck Club
