Mem and LR04
Hey guys thanks for insightfulness!! I actually have read both of your threads completely before I started mine and its just so odd how all these situations are soooooo similiar you know.
Yes I want my M to work! and the last 4 months I have done alot of soul searching within myself and have gone to a C. I have realized my failures in the R i.e. we were trying for baby #2 and I have problems becoming pg I have to do meds, charting etc.. so our sex life become very static and scheduled not really fun you know kinda hurry up and get this done kinda thing. And MY life revolved around getting pg and nothing else really mattered to me and honestly if H had tried to talk to me (which he said he did) I probably wouldnt have heard him...THIS made me hear him....and I just worry its to late now since he is in love with OW . And I have big self esteem issues and guess never realized how big, I never felt I deserved H that he could do much better then me and so therefore I had a hard time trusting him (although he NEVER did anything before this for me to ? his faithfulness)and he tells me now that that really killed him that I didnt trust him and I try to tell him now that it wasnt him it was how I felt about myself and of course he says now well you had a hard time trusting me before how do you think it would be if we got back together (although he hasnt said anything about getting back together in 3 months) and I told him those are issues I would have to work on through C but that I wanted to do that.
I did find out through a friends mom that spoke with H in Aug and H said all these wonderful things about me and she just looked at him and said H if she is this kind of person then why are you leaving? And he said I have feelings for W and for OW and I have to make a decision by end of Dec. Well I told her that I think he already made his decision if he has moved things into the house OW has rented and is giving her rent $$ now.
The funny thing is all his friends that have met OW have told me what she looks like and they ALL said man she's nothing to leave your family for I just dont see it whats the big draw?? And 1 friend his exact phrase was man if your going to leave your W for someone dont U think it would be for someone thats at least a wow and not a uhhh hahaha. My H is 6'1 and they say she is as tall as he is.
I will keep up with you guys threads as well, this is a great place for venting and support just the last week that I have been hear have helped me tremendously!!!
LF