Quote: Something strange about patience, for as long as I thought I needed a deadline so that I can 'make a decision' patience seemed to be a difficult beast to tame. Now that I've re-framed myself to view little improvements or changes as something I will do for the rest of my life - well hey, there seems to be all the time in the world Regardless of whether I will be with NG, I see myself as someone who will now be constantly re-evaluating what I am doing NOW, not preparing for some hypothetical future.
Slowly, this is so worth reading over & over again. There are two points which resonate clearly with me: (1) Setting a 'deadline' was often a way of avoiding the pain of a situation by imposing an artificial limit to the amount of time I would have to reach a result. Sometimes I think it would inhibit creativity in finding solutions as well. (2)I realized that I was often living by planning for the future and missing the fun of right NOW. Rushing around trying to make the 'next thing' perfect all but erased the moment I was in. And as long as I kept this up, it felt like that future never came bec. by the time it did I was beyond it, working on the 'next'.
Viewed as life-long process and knowing that all we really have IS right now will serve us well.
Hugs, -H2H
PS: Way to go on the skating! I thought it was a fantastic new thing to do. Looking forward to reading H's reaction.
