Trish, Betsey and MovingForward - thanks so much for your wisdom, it is just so nice to have my struggles validated, more than anything else. Especially as I'm getting no recognition from the person who could make all this so much easier

Trish - I will read up your thread and the one in MLC that you recommend. It may not answer my questions, but like much on this board, it will certainly help me acquire some tools to cope better

Betsey - Welcome back! I can empathise with the work thing, part of my 'problem' is that the mountain on my desk is not allowing enough time for contemplation I think Maya is drowning too. Must be something to do with the eclipse

MovingForward - I've never thought of what happens after he tells me why it happened - you bring a new perspective to the table - that the satisfaction is short-lived I guess for me, one of the things I'm looking for is for him to feel that I am important enough for him to put the effort into explaining what and why it happened, not just brush the whole thing aside.

And yes, time is what will ultimately do the job. I know I'm still in the 2-month since contact ended zone (at least, I'm told there has been no more contact, see the problem, I'm not even 100% sure, finding it sooo hard to believe after all the fluent lies )

I fully accept it is these kind of struggles that make piecing worth having its own forum - there are real challenges. On the bright side, I know I'm improving myself, and no matter what, I am coming out of this a better person. It also dawned on me that I do not have to change my life, in order to live a different life. That feels liberating.

Slowly

A Liberal Allowance of Time