You know, GGB, I didn't even ask him. Maybe I should call him today. I suppose I am afraid of him saying, "Two and a half weeks? Are ya serious?!"

Besides, at the time it seemed like a fabulous idea and yet this morning I am very glad that we didn't. I still feel a little unready, physically, due to a procedure that I had performed last Saturday, rather than the birth itself.

I was feeling a little unsure this morning how H felt about the whole thing. I emailed him, hinting around (how lame, I know) and he wrote back that this was by far the best recovery period for him. He said the other two were much more traumatic. He has really come so far.

In fact, my thoughts for the day are in regards to:

The Honeymoon Period

I think that, in contemplating repairing our R, I thought that we would work through our problems and that there would be this wonderful hmoon period where we were crazy for each other and loving every minute of our reconnection.

The reality was that, in the time of us drifting apart, SO many resentments had taken hold that it was nearly impossible to even connect at all, let alone with any kind of good Hmoon vibe.
It took forever to work through those and I suspect there are still a few lying around in the recesses of my brain..who knows about H's.

But this time I am looking forward to a nice period of reconnection for us.

Now, things will not be perfect..I know that. We really are sexually mismatched (as one other poster put it) but it seems MUCH less insurmountable this time than after D2 was born. Back then, I never thought he would desire me again (he was convinced it was a sin, the lunatic). I never thought I would trust him again. ETC ETC.

There have been so many disappointments but each one paradoxically brings up closer. I was really bummed when he told me that lingerie does nothing for him..it is nothing more than another piece of clothing (remember the So Long, Thong thread, lol). However, now that I know that I can proceed with wearing it if the mood strikes me and will not be disappointed at his lack of reaction. We are finally learning about each other, IOW.

I feel very positive today, but who doesn't the day after they get some action after a loooong drought.