HP, I think that you hit yhe nail on the head with fatigue, sleep deprivation, flu, stress, hormonal swings, post partum depression, etc., etc. You are bound to feel a letdown right now and that might continue for a bit until a routine establishes itself.
I understand completely the need to be held especially when having emotions grip you with their deadly hold. FWIW, you have made great strides while very preggers. Let things calm down and sort themselves out before thinking about all of the "what ifs?" Give yourself time to adjust to being a woman again, not just a Mommy. It will take the H time to see you as a woman again, too.
