I loved what you said earlier about H balancing me. That is right on target. Actually, we both balance each other in almost every area of our marriage. I wish it were easier to accept that I am the higher drive spouse and that this 'balancing' isn't anything personal.
I think that I would have a much easier time accepting his drive if he were more aggressive and sexual during the times that we do ML. The fact that it comes from his physical need for release, as well as a desire to "please me" and not from a place of lust and desire makes it less enjoyable for me. The disappointment I feel when H does not notice my attempts to seduce him is so REAL that when he finally does come to me I often feel like saying, Oh forget it; I want to be more than a sperm receptacle--I want you to want me.
But now I am digressing into Cheap Trick lyrics so I will go tend the baby.
Honey, who actually has on a pair of JEANS, people!! Ok, so they are several sizes larger than my normal 6's but who gives a flyin leap...it's been a long time since I had drawers on that didn't have a stretchy panel instead of a zipper.
