Well I'm home on leave at the moment, and things are ok. It was our seventh wedding anniversary on Monday and H got me some lovely flowers and then took me out for dinner. This was really unusual for him. He normally goes with the very extravent gifts and this time he didn't.
I sort of annoyed me. I was thinking 'After all we've been through, all you could get me was a bunch of flower???' weird eh. At least it wasn't the none event it was last year. But you know, a gift doesn't mean that much to me, i mean it is nice to get them, but for me it needs to mean something.
Any hoo, we had a lovely dinner and so it was a good night. I still don't feel right and maybe I'm not supposed to yet. Time and patience. well I've got plenty of time!!! Once again i need to start doing and less talking about it. If I want a loving relationship then i need to do stuff to make it more loving.
I just want to feel content and happy with my H. I know we had that before and thus we can have that again. I picture us in another 12 months and i see us smiling and laughing and just loving being together, so i guess that I'll aim for that.
