Well I am feeling a little funky, there is so much going on that it is hard to put it all down to words.
H's business has reached the point where in order to proceed in a timely fashion he needs my signature on some documents pledging some real estate as collateral.
I know that sends everyone's radar up up up, as it well should.
But the truth of the matter is that H has already (back in July '03 pre-bomb) signed a personal guarantee. So the bank will get their money from H no matter what. Whether I cooperate or not.
The question is really not will I sign the loans (H has alreay signed the loan and the loan will have to be paid), but will I also sign the loans so that the business can continue.
It is all very complicated and beyond the scope of discussion here on the board I think.
I hesitated to even write this here because I know that it is really probably beyond the realm of most people's experiences here.
I met on Tuesday with H's CFO and I am meeting tomorrow with H, the bank and another money guy.
Obviously this all casts a pall over my R with H. It is hard to re-build your R when there is an elephant in the living room.
More verbal affirmation that things are tanking between H and OW...fights, name calling, crappy e-mails etc.
He asked me if I wanted to see the e-mails she sent. I said 'no' but should I re-consider? The other night I made fun of an e-mail that she sent way back in Dec of '03 titled "I dot not want you." I need to know when to keep my trap shut.
He also said some of the same stuff that Deb's H said to her regarding my being controlling and how will he know that things will be diff and my changes are for real.
I am just trying to stay focused and take this all to God in prayer. I still do not know what the right answer is.
