I am going to make a list of a few positives that I have seen in the past few days.
1. I feel more at peace, I am less concerned about trying to "fix things"
2. H is calling me again, he had stopped calling me with any frequency about 2 months ago
3. H invited me to dinner for tomorrow night, we were maybe going to go tonight but he called this am, and suggested changing it because we would have a time constraint due to the boys being at scouts tonight. Also Monday night the nice restaurants are closed and H said that he wanted to take me somewhere nice.
4. He didn't stay for dinner last night, and I was fine with that, I really was
5.Yesterday at S12's football game I was really able to enjoy myself. It used to be when H was there I would be all worried about him and what he thought, if he was happy, if his cell ph was vibrating with an OW phone call. Yesterday I was just my usual fun self, and I didn't worry about H and what he was/wasn't thinking.
6. Yesterday H put his arm around me and held my hand for about 30 seconds at the football game. First PDA in a while. Of course he took his arm away when S15 walked up, but that is ok.
There are probably more things I know, but I need to go pick up the boys.
Tomorrow is my meeting at H's office with the CFO. I told H I didn't want any sugar coated stuff, just the facts. I can deal with the truth.
