One other interesting side note from yesterday's convo with H.
He said that for the first time in a long time he loves himself, and that he has to love himself before he loves me. I guess that is the feeling that I had felt for a while that H had nothing to give me.
I am still not sure what he has to give me, most of the convo yesterday was about him and his business and the kids.
He does seems a little less wounded than he has been. And there seems to be a resolve about him that I have not seen before. The other times that he talked about getting rid of OW were all way more emotional.
And of course talk is cheap while he is here in the U.S. and not Brazil. He has not actually even said that they did break up or that their R is over. He just seems to be looking more at the future and what that holds, and I guess that is good.
If anyone has any insights I would appreciate hearing about them.
I am feeling pretty ok and at peace with myself and the sitch...just taking it one day at a time which is obviously all I can do.
My friend's mom and I ended up having lunch yesterday. Her visit was just what I needed too.
