I am still sort of in a state a shock, unsure of what to make of all this.

I don't want to seem jaded, but I have heard him tell before that he was going to break up with OW and it lasted for about 15 minutes. This time he didn't say anything about breaking up with her, just said that he was tired of his life of chaos and was "coming home." He also said that he was going to call and tell me that from the airport as a surprise, but that he didn't want to wait.

As far as the trip to China I am just taking a wait and see attitutude..Mr Spews forth crap is always saying a bunch of stuff and I don't want to get all excited for nothing. Plus I am a wee bit gun shy after my ill fated trip to Las Vegas with him. But if he wants me to go I will def go.

Please don't anyone hold their breath on my account I appreciate the sentiment but I don't want anyone needing CPR on my behalf.

Just keeping thinking positive thoughts and that I can keep saying and doing the right thing when I am faced with dbing in the flesh - something I haven't had a lot of opp. to try recently.

Pam