Well all,

I guess I should have known/expected that it was too good to be true. H will NOT be home today. I don't know that he has ever come home from Brazil when he said that he was going to, his stupid trips there always get extended.

H called last night at 9:40, I was already sleeping in bed, so much for looking like I have a life, in bed early on a Sat night.

The first thing that I asked him was if he was on his way home. The reply, "no, but I wish I was, can I talk to the boys?"

Me "I though that you were leaving today"

H "I have some stuff to finish up, I'll be coming home on Monday."

Me "Will you be home on Monday, or leaving on Monday?"

"H "Leaving on Monday, can I talk to the boys?"

So I blew him a kiss and he blew one back and he told me to take care, then I gave the phone to S12.


Rats, crap, and any other expletive that's not fit to print.

I ended up taking a sleeping pill I was so upset and knew that I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep.

As I layed there in tears I thought of myself and all my friends here on the bb whose H's were sleeping in the arms of OW last night while we slept alone.

This is messed up, not natural, certainly not fair, and indeed the coaster ride from h***.

I can't think of much else to say, I wanted so bad for him to be out of Brazil and away from OW.

I feel like pain is my constant companion as I keep standing for what I believe in.

Pam