Well I am certainly a tiny bit encouraged about the two phone calls from H yesterday.
I think that he probably just sees me as the calm port in the storm.
I am not "expecting" anything to happen. I am finally starting to get the fact that the process of restoration is a journey. I have naively expected him to break up with OW every time that he had some sort of a revelation about OW's shortcomings or how "unrealistic" their R was.
And the sad part is, if he walked in the door on Sunday and said "honey, I'm home" he would still be bringing all of his problems with him.
And the thought that has haunted me for a while is this... If H doesn't get the fact that having a R with OW was "wrong" if he just thinks that they were not "compatible" after all, then where does that leave us? I am eventually going to need something that looks like genuine repentence otherwise I feel like it leaves the door open for H going outside the M when he feels unhappy inside.
Of course this is all just Wednesday morning talk, we are a long way away from this point.
I am also glady accepting any ideas for what to do/say/think/act as if once H returns on Sunday.
