Im sad, hurt, angry and a lot of other mixed emotions..I need to write a letter to my H to get out all of my feelings and thought I would just do it here...
H,
I am so sad right now. I dont think you even see it. You told me you would try to work on our marriage, but I really dont see any effor on your part. You just keep taking and taking while I give and give and you know what? I really dont have much more to give anymore. You always choose your friends over me, even after I have asked you first to do something. I just ask you to put yoursel in my shoes once and see how hurtful it is to always be chosen last. I hear you talk to other people on the phone in a nice and cheery voice and you laugh and then when you talk to me, there is nothing. NO feeling, NO laughter, NOTHING!!YOu dont share anything about you or your day or life with me anymore...then why am I here???
I wonder if you are just putting up with me until you decide to leave, because that it the feeling that I am getting. If that is it, please dont wait, just go...I want to hold on the the little bit of love I have left for you and if we keep going as we are...there will be nothing left.
Im tired of hurting, tired of crying, tired of trying so hard to be the perfect wife, while I am treated so badly. I dont deserve that. I am a wonderful, loving, caring, beautiful person who deserves so much more than you have been giving me. I have worked so hard on myself the past few months and have felt so good about myself. But the way you are treating me, makes me feel worthless and I dont want to feel that way. I deserve to be appreciated and loved and cared for...so please, if you really want our marriage to work let talk about this so that I can better understand where you are at and what we should be doing differently.
Love, Angie
Well, I feel a little better even though I am crying so hard. I am so lost...I really dont know what to do anymore, but I dont want to be so sad and hurting all the time. I guess detatching might work, but is there a way to really detatch when you are trying to work on your marriage?? Please anyone...
