Quote: So. If you get a chance, check the browser history on his computer and see what he is having a look at. Do you two share the same machine? Has he shown any interest in gay porn? Does he chat online?
Also, do you know why he resents you so much?
Ok, there's lots of porn, but it seems like pretty 'normal' stuff, girls...I didn't go to every site I found, but doesn't seem like there's any gay or otherwise 'odd' stuff. I'm pretty sure there's no chatting. Doesn't really fit H's character.
Do I know why he resents me? I know, from our first real 'convo' a month or so ago, that my angry outbursts and bringing up D upset him. I would see that as a symptom, as for me problems started before then, though maybe that's the point of resentment on his part.
I remember too the day D8 was conceived (ok, my sis called, got us out of bed to tell us she was pg, maybe that's why I remember so well...) that there was some 'argument', H was upset about how I had responded to something, I don't remember specifics, though I've tried, but he felt that something I had said, or the way I said it was insulting to him.
I wonder too, how much of the resentment may actually be from me...my ambivilant feelings about staying here, loosing my Am. identity...against H wanting me to be 'more Finnish'? Ok, maybe I'm grabbing at straws.
I know that H is very consious of his 'place in society', I remember him saying when D8 was born that now he had to start doing things, that he had to catch up with his classmates. I know he's been trying to get his own pharmacy (H is a pharmacist, won't go into Finnish farmacy law here, but there are a limited no. of pharmacy permits which are applied for when they become available) for a while with no luck yet. I know I have said that it would make our life easier if he had his own pharmacy, it would be easier for me to be home more, etc., perhaps this puts pressure on him?
