The hardest thing to change in a relationship is the very thing that must be changed in order to save it.
Please make sure that calling the counsellor and getting the book are SECONDARY to your taking action in your relationship. It is good that you are willing to get help and read the book. Just make sure that you aren't procrastinating on doing anything with the information. I think that is your particular weakness in your relationship.
Fear is a relationship killer.
All the best, HD. -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.