I know I won't always feel sad, and I know I won't always feel liberated from my pain. But I think this is the right thing to do if I truly love my W. Why would I want to continue to cause her pain? Maybe if I visualize her with a physical disability it will make it easier for me to handle this
Hmmmmmmmmmmm I guess I don't see the point in thinking like if you truely love someone you will accept them like that. After all didn't you accept her for herself at the beginning when you had a physical relationship? Physical disability doesn't make it that much easier to live without phylical love. I might get blasted here by others by saying those things.
If this is how you really feel, I wish you all the best
