Well...the Red Sox are certainly making life enjoyable! Had a good (but freaking freezing!) time Sat. night. Last night h went with a friend of his. I think they had a GREAT time! GO SOX!

I don't know what's up with me but I'm just not feeling well at all...not even physically sick so much as just anxious and down. I was having a mini-anxiety attack all day (just the racing pulse thing that used to plague me on Mondays). I don't think it's caffeine (altho...did I have any yesterday????)...could be too much homework, I suppose...but something feels very off for me right now. (I suppose it could also be the fact that we've been staying up late and not exercising every day for the last few weeks...)

Anyway, I've been having some not-so-pleasant realizations that I've been "in my head" and exhibiting some pre-bomb behaviors for the last few weeks...just letting myself get torqued up over little things (inside) and running down cheeseless tunnel after cheeseless tunnel...I haven't "made crazy" but I think I have been probably confusing to h .. happy go lucky one minute and withdrawn the next. Gotta get myself together!!! It was dismaying to realize that I was back in old bad habits.

Maybe I need to focus on positives!

1. h called me a couple of times from the game last night...too cute and very thoughtful of him

2. h read my paper (due today) and was very laudatory. I really appreciate the time he took reading it and the thoughtful comments!

3. h shared with me something that he had written. it was very poignant.

4. h shared with me some concerns he was having over school. I really appreciate it when he lets me know what he's thinking/concerned about.

5. h sent me a great note thanking me for some things I had done for him.

6. h did a ton of stuff around the house this weekend -- lots of laundry, cleaning up, etc

there...I doubled up for today

Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.