I am still in this space where I have toned down my sexuality ...not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I don't want to go back to my LD days, so I am consciously making an effort to have fun while going through the stresses of life ( I can relate to SM's post about his wife...that was me yrs ago). H and I are getting along...he commented that I seem more tired, and that we'll do something enjoyable on Sat like pumpkin picking w the kids and dinner by ourselves later. Hoping HD, CE, Barn and others will post something funny today...or that HP makes another of her preggo comments( hey HP... I always delivered exactly 3 weeks before my due date and they were 6 lbers...that shold get you going...smiles).
Last nite H and I went to bed and I didn't expect anything and really didn't care. We started to kiss, again in this nice, non-passionate way, but I did notice some tingles and we did some touching. Again, I didn't care about ML but he wanted to and even remembered to move into a position I like. He asked if I O'd and I said I didn't but that I felt very cared for and was fine. He threw in how nice this felt. Again, no real passion but it was pleasant and close feeling.
I brought out new sheets and he changed them; he then asked that if I wake him up again by my tossing and turning and he goes to sleep in the guest room, if I would just let him sleep, and I said yes. I told him I guess I felt insecure when I woke up and he wasn't there yesterday, and he understood.
So, we are continuing along in this nice pattern, which of course, is nice. I wonder why I am losing that thrill seeking part of my personality.
