Thanks again HP...what am I going to do when you're busy with baby#3?
Maybe you'll do what I am doing right now...puppy on my lap.
Humor is a great thing, but we aren't at that stage right now...too many sensitive feelings floating around.
In my identity now as a HDW, I have forgotton my LD past and how it affected the marriage. But I do think that H contributed to my lower drive by not being open and flexible in his sexuality, and I wasn't comfortable enough to express my needs.
I guess I did bypass him in my quest to become sensual again.
So now we are back at square one...the mission is to keep connected to him while I express what turns me on and hope that he is able to meet me in a caring and less defesnive way. I also have to be more enthusiastic about his way of ML and enjoy the connection rather than retreating into fantasy.
One problematic area is that he says I don't say what I would like; I feel I can say what I like but he is locked into his way.
Anyway I better go spruce myself up...I have dog hair on me and smell like dog. No offense HD.
