Well, we got the new puppy and what a sweet addtion she is to the family. H and the kids are all involved and it's adding to that closeness feeling.
( Cant wait for Honey to have that baby...)
H and I are starting from scratch ( sexually)in our marriage. It is so weird and I am not sure what is going on ( any input appreciated).
We tried kissing with the two of us being very aware of each other...it was pleasant but not passionate. We did some gentle caresses which was nice but also low down in the hot scale. He wanted to jump to ML --- I should have insisted on more foreplay/ exploring since the idea is to connect. We both weren't that aroused but it seemed impt for him to have IC. I told him it wasn't impt to me, but once again I deferred to him. So we are ML and it's in a position that really does nothing for me, so I speak up and say I'd like to change it, and he says back that he needs to get going this way. At this point I am thinking we are truly sexually incompatible. But then, after he does get started and all, he does switch to what I had suggested, and it was nice but again, not great. I didn't push to O and either did he...he asked me if I am feeling okay and good( I said yes) and he commented that he was too. There was a lot of cuddle time after.
So no hot sex for Journey. It's like we have to go back to when the damage was done, many yrs ago, when I wasn't feeling thrilled with what he was doing, expected him to know how to please me, with him being stubborn/defensive when I tried to talk about it.
We are being civil and kind to each other, which I guess was what was missing in my recent quest to have a decent sex life. I know I need to speak up more( and in a way that he can hear) and he needs to be more considerate of my feelings without getting defensive.
