I just wanted to let you know that you have been on my mind and in my prayers ever since I read your thread last night.
One thing I wanted to share is a little tidbit from my friend's therapist which is this:
Excessive emotion blocks thinking.
So girlfriend take it slow, you should not do anything out of anger or fear, hurt or betrayal. I know that you are feeling all of these things at this time, I have been there myself.
I m going to be out of the house and away from the computer today, but I send you a hug and I will check in when I can.