Hi Deb- I've never posted to you before but your thread caught my eye today. I seem to be suffering the same thoughts/issues/feelings as you and the others right now. My H has yet to admit that the A is over. We've had several reconnects since January and I feel like things are different in a good way right now but there are still some things that make me think that it is not completely over. I'll add the link to my latest post below. I'm wondering if you could take a look and let me know whether it sounds like anything you have experienced? I could really use some mental help today.