Thought I'd journal a couple of thoughts that occured to me.... In spite of my anxiousness that irritates him, H is kind and loving.... He stopped by my office yesterday eve. on his way out, chatted a minute about the day, and I told him I was sorry for being so anxious that it made him miserable. He smiled, hugged me, and said "oh,it's ok, what else would you do?" I took that as a positive; When I got home from work last night, he had put a beer in the fridge to get cold for me. I didnt feel like drinking one, but thanked him for thinking of me and doing that, and I thought that was a sweet small gesture.
H took his shirt off when he came to bed for "skin snuggles" again....he seems to crave that even more than I do.
This morning I was almost late to work because we were just "chatting"....he hugged me and kissed me in nice, really warm ways before I left. It occurred to me that one thing that seems different about him since he told me about 2 months ago the A was over is that I have this "sense" that he is not holding back from me emotionally anymore. I don't know if anyone knows what I'm talking about, it's hard to explain, but when he was involved w/OW, it was always like he has holding "something" in "reserve".....like he wasnt completely "there" emotionally....I'd be really interesteed to know if anyone else has seen this kind of thing, or even knows what I mean!
