I am a little tired right now, though not too stressed. I have had an emotional few weeks with both my mother and her sister dying in the space of three days. I had to travel at short notice to other country for that, then my sister was here, which was nice, but none of my work or housework got done, so now I am slowly picking up the pieces. I have got two new students this week, so that helps, but I lost a lot of income while I was away, the downside of being a self-employed person!
I feel strangely calm about my mother's death. Not sure why yet. I feel she was a good (enough) mother to me and she lived to a good age, so I have no big regret. My sister had far more serious issues with my mother and therefore seems to have taken her death surprisingly badly. She was also there when Mum died and she says that wasn't the nicest part, although of course she wanted to be there. I only arrived at the hospital two hours after Mum passed away. So I had a 'kind of' good bye.
I need a few weeks to get my daily life in order once again, before I can start thinking of more long term or fun projects, if you know what I mean.
I would LOVE for H and I to be able to spend Christmas together with D, if that was possible. Maybe I should set it as a goal?
D would, of course, love for us to get together. When H talked to her on the phone last time, D went into the bedroom and closed the door to speak at one point. She has never done that before. They were talking about arrangements for this weekend.
Yesterday evening H rang to say he couldn't get hold of his landlord to fix up the travel arrangements for D to go up. I wonder if somehow the plan for D to go up will be changed or fall through to allow for other arrangements???
Who knows. But frankly, I could do with a couple of days without anyone to cater for so I can get on with a load of housework and other stuff!
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
