There's one thing I haven't mentioned in my posts here yet.
Last week I felt moved to send a short email to a friend of H's that he collaborates with for his personal work. I felt this individual was a friend of our marriage, although I don't know him well. He was the friend that H brought with him to stay at this house for a night early in April.
In the email I apologised for perhaps seeming rude when I rang him once when H was with him, as I didn't speak to him in my nervousness. Also simply told him I love H still. But that I didn't want or expect him to do anything about it. Just wanted him to know.
I think I did this partly because I have done so much venting in the past eighteen months, to all and sundry, that I wanted to sow some positive seeds around. I have stopped moaning about H to friends (except here, and I'm working on that!) H is going to stay with this person in a couple of weeks in another country nearby.
Anyway, I got a reply from this friend, in which he states it is his private feeling that all three of us (H, D and myself) deserved another chance to work things out. I felt very cheered by the fact that someone out there thought that way, and not just on this BB.
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
