Quote: Have you ever told him how devastating his actions were and did he get it?
Actually I brought up some of this stuff recently because I knew I had to overcome my resentment if we were going to move forward. At first he became angry and asked how I could possibly love him when I remember all sorts of horrible things that he has done. He admitted that he was a jerk for doing these things, especially not supporting me when my father died. He said he remembers the incident on the sofa clearly. He said it was like part of him was disgusted watching himself behave like such a jerk but he couldn't make himself behave any better. I told him, truthfully, that if I hadn't been devastated by grief at the time, I probably would have left him right then because the thought that ran through my head was "What is the point of being married to someone if they can't even support you at a time like this.". I don't think that he is heartless, I think that he is weak and I don't think it is possible for me to continue to be married to him if he doesn't get stronger unless I am consciously willing to make a huge sacrifice. I would like to believe that he can get stronger, but I have my doubts.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
