I'm going away for a couple of days, probably won't have a chance to check in, so I'll send all kinds of good vibes your way for a short labor. And for your sake, I do hope you're not still pregnant when I get back!!
I am going to the doctor today to see if there is anything going on, which I'm sure there isn't.
Thanks to all who rode this wild ride with me.
Yesterday I was looking through some of my old posts and trying to find the oldest ones to see what on earth I complained about before the preg woes but I got sick of wading through them all and gave up. I suppose it was your basic sexually incompatible issues that Journey wrote about the other day. We ARE sexually incompatible, that's for sure, but there are so many other areas in which we are perfectly suited for each other that I continue to plug away. Provided that we continue to move forward I will try not to get antsy at the pace.
Ha! How's that for a proclamation that is sure to unravel right before my lovely viewing public's eyes? LOL
I think I am in such a good place because last weekend I saw my "old" H for a brief time. It was good to see him and I am looking forward to seeing him on a regular basis soon.
Last night was a strange night. I attended a moving-out-of-state party for a friend and went with LD SIL.
Her and I ended up getting into a conversation in which she revealed that her H would probably want sex that night and she couldn't help it..she felt rage and nausea at the thought of it. I said, Nausea?? She replied that the sight of him nauseated her most of the time. I tried not to personalize this (and jump to conclusions about H) so I said very little. She knows that I am HD and that I do NOT get this type of thinking at all. I just tried to empathize with her that having those sorts of feelings about your spouse would indeed be very hard to deal with. She ended by saying that she thought she needed to resume counseling because she is not getting anywhere on her own and her H was furious a while back because she got totally caught up in a series of 5 romance novels that were beyond graphic. (mad because she has no passion for him but will read erotic literature)
I arrived home and my husband was very irritated with me. He had a very bad day at work..really one of the worst he has ever had..and just wanted to go to sleep early. But, according to him, he can't sleep if I and the kids are not here so I was making his life hard by coming home at 10:10. (D's spent the night so they got in bed at a reasonable hour) I looked at him as if he was the village idiot who everyone loves but no one thinks makes a lick of sense and said, 'It's not my fault you didn't go to sleep..now get in there and do that and stop harrassing me.' (said in a "go away, you're being a pest" voice, not anger or anything)
We went to bed and he was SO irritable. Kicking the covers around, tossing, turning, the whole nine yards. I asked if there was anything I could do to help; he gave me an emphatic NO and I smiled to myself and tried to sleep through his theatrics. He eventually settled down and went to sleep.
The funny thing is that tonight, he will want sex. This is a pattern for him: have a really irritable night, toss and turn, and then the next night say "boy I really needed to have sex last night; I was so cranky and horny and couldn't sleep." Sometimes I am tempted to say, Well you shoulda done it last night then, the cafe is CLOSED! But I don't, lol.
This type of behavior just stupefies me. After all these years of trying to empathize and understand his side of things, I still don't have any clearer understanding of what would make him act like this.
Except to say: He is, like, SOOOO fused. (said in my best valley girl voice..)
Oh well I am off to go pick up D's and enjoy this beautiful day outside! 1 day overdue and counting....
It sounds to me like he is afraid to initiate. I'll bet the tossing and turning and generally making a ruckus is his 'lighting a candle'. Very strange way of doing it, but I'll bet that's what it was. I've done similar before when I was very horny but had been shot down enough times that I was gun shy and was afraid to attempt another initiation. Maybe you need to call him on that behavior, tell him that you suspect it may be his way of telling you he's horny but all it does for you is turn you off and that perhaps he ought to find another way to signal his horniness.
OK,OK, maybe I'm way off the mark, but your comments make this ring true to me, and I think you at least feel it subconciously.
PS remind him the due date clock is ticking and theatrics that put it off to the next day might just well put it off for the next 4-6 weeks.
--GGB, once known for stupid theatrics when W didn't read his mind too.
NO WAY was he trying to initiate or even WILLING to admit he was horny. He was irritated with me and didn't want me to even touch him, let alone ML to me.
That may sound whiny, but it didn't bother me in the least. I am so used to his personality quirks that, like I said, I just treated him like the village idiot (benignly ignoring his nonsensical behavior) and went to sleep. I did tell him that I loved him and wished him sweet dreams.
He is very attached to his routine. He doesn't like it interrupted. Too bad. I came home later than usual last night but I in no way feel responsible for his ability to fall asleep or not.
He knows he was being a nincompoop and that's enough for me.
I just find it funny that tonight he will say how he should have just had sex last night and been able to rest easy. I will then ask why he didn't do just that and he will say either "I don't know" or "I was too worked up to even want to" or something else that just boggles my mind.
I mean, if you know that ML will help you relax and fall asleep why not just do it? Why make it into a mind f*ck where you torture yourself and toss and turn and be rude to your spouse?
It's almost as if he wants to punish himself or me or both and revel in his irritation!
Oh well, not gonna dwell on it anymore. I know him inside and out and am fully expecting some labor-inducing action tonight, if his past behavior is any indication to future antics.
HP, Could he have been horny earlier when you weren't around and then gotten worked up about it to the point where he couldn't any more by the time you got home? Sorry, just thinkin out loud. Perhaps there is a bit of wishful thinking in there too
Okayyyyyyyyyyyy, GGB, I will give him the benefit of the doubt. There have been times in the past that H gets horny for me when I am not home. He also gets irritable as all get out when his precious routine is interrupted. So maybe the combination of those two things had him in an uproar.
Note: I do not believe what I just typed for ONE second, but I will let it stay in my mind as a possibility instead of automatically casting it aside.
One more tidbit of info: The other night H was watching XMen 2 while I read a book. He was quite horny when we went to bed. Then he finished the movie last night and was irritable which you, GGB, are interpreting as horniness-gone-bad.
So what's the deal? Are there a lot of pretty girls in this movie or something? I thought it was about mutants or aliens or something, lol.
Here is my latest theory: Mr. HP is just a pain in the ass. Plain and simple.
Betsey 
