thank you both for supporting and Sage for not being upset with me.
I am just spending lots of time trying to sort out my head.
Not there yet.
I am getting lots of housework done.
Feeling some anger at J, but I know she does like to gloat, she did it last year at the dog show when she knew D was filing the next day and I didn't.
I keep thinking she won, she got him divorced, what else does she want, but I guess as long as we still own the house together he isn't free and clear for her.
My thoughts for now are D is working on the house, he definitely intends to list it as soon as possible and I am going to try again to just drop the rope.
He didn't start working on getting it ready till I was out of it so it appears he doesn't want my help on anything and I have let him know if he does need me all he has to do is let me know and I will be glad to help.
Hoping if I back away I can work on getting thoughts of J out of my head and get my emotions leveled back out.
This morning I didn't even go to the grocery store. I walked the shelties, checked e-mail and then went back to bed for about 2 hours. Did feel better when I got back up, not quit so depressed. Called M and told her was going to work on the house and skip breakfast this morning.
She asked if I was going to Home Depot, I said not sure, I need to pick up my blinds. I had told her last night they were in. She said why don't you let me get them then if they are paid for as I have to go to HD after work anyway.
I have decided she HAS to be my guardian angel!!!!!!!!!
Favorite Christmas movie: It's a Wonderful Life
So today more work on organizing the house. Determined to get my life and house organized again.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
