Do you suppose with more time and distance I will ever feel I WANT to forgive her?

I am afraid the feelings I have right now towards her are anger and I guess hatred, a desire to hurt her the way she hurt me and abused my trust and friendship.

I very much feel she used me during the first year to spend time with D.

Most of the time I don't feel anger at D, sometimes I do and I know there is still some there, and my other ex friend I have no desire to ever see again, but not the intense anger I have towards J.

I KNOW this isn't good and it keeps me stuck. What I do is try to keep her out of my mind and I suceed a lot of the time now.

But this e-mail deal today really brings it up for me.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"