I am still having ups and downs it seems. Of course today is also cramps as I started.
Had another very short not to nice sounding e-mail from D to start my morning off. He seems mad, and I have no idea why! I mean he has his divorce, I am out of the house so he can start getting it ready to sell. What else does he expect of me? I have no idea.
Shiny, neither A did worth a darn on sitting up guidelines on PK. It is very much in our hands and right now the utilities aren't being paid and I am not even sure the mortgage payment is being made, but there is certainly no way I could make it now. I think it would be silly to let the bank take the house so hopefully he isn't going to do that, but to me the responses I have gotten are more about anger than logic to work on the house. Does that make any sense to anyone as to why he would be angry now? I have not been bothering him at all. I think he plans to sell the house but he has not let me know anything. Basically other than these two short terse e-mails he doesn't communicate with me at all.
I have to really just drop the rope as I can't afford to maintain my new house and do stuff at PK. So it is all whether he decides to let it sit or get it ready to sell, or move into it.
Then this afternoon I guess I was being the overly solicitous, did I do something and G was having a REALLY bad day, he raised his voice to me on the phone. He had to go to the funeral home Monday night for two different visitations, one was his pastor and one was a relative of a friend who was 20 years old and had committed suicide. Apparently these two things plus probably still some divorce junk were upsetting him and I thought I had said something to upset him. My Ms. Fix it I guess pushed a button.
Then I got home and tried to get the shelties walked and the fence people showed up which is great except the shelties didn't get to potty. All they wanted to do was bark. So the evening is bound to get better and tomorrow be a better day!
I guess I'm not too pleased with myself as I feel I'm not managing things in my life too well right at the moment!
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
