Today I have called a couple of moving companies to get estimates on moving the last of my furniture. The heaviest stuff that I don't think mom, dad and I can get by ourselves.

I have felt most of this week like I just want to sit down and cry, very tired and stressed. I think part of it is hormones and part of it is trying to keep up with two houses now.

I spend the night at the new house but each morning drive back to the other one, feed the dogs and get ready for work. I feel it is just starting to run me down as I try to keep both houses looking organized and cleaned. Plus the shelties aren't adjusting too great to the new house, they bark at every little noise when we are staying there.

David is being typical David and doesn't return e-mails or phone calls. He is doing things on the house and doesn't let me know anything. I want to get out and just drop this rope. No matter what he does with the house I can't control it other than I have to sign before he can sell it. I just need the stress of his inconsiderate behavior where I don't have to deal with it.

I do like my new house, like the old one better but this new one is nice. They were in Tuesday and got some of it finished up and next Tuesday should finish the last of the work needing done on it.

Right now I am very much into wanting to crawl into a hole mode and I can't do that as I have too much to do to finish up this move.

So I am just trying to keep pushing those feelings back and focus on essentials that need done.

I am thinking positively that once I complete this move my emotions will start to level back out a bit.

Pam

"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned
so as to have the life that is waiting for us"