Well as usual my husband seemed to fake "not feeling well" on my birthday. Not just any birthday... 40!! I swear I just don't understand what is wrong. I feel so freaking cheated out of a NORMAL life whatever that is. It seems like whenever sex seems like the thing to do... he comes up with some ailment that takes the attention. Be it a headache, upset tummy...whatever. I was so upset last night that I didnt even bother to say good night Nothing. He woke up an hour early this morning and just laid there and stared at me...like he KNEW he had disappointed me and hurt my feelings. Hurt and disappointed doesnt even cover it anymore. I am ANGRY!!! I want to walk out and never look back but I love my husband and I just dont think leaving is going to make things better???? Our anniversay is on Sat and I can almost guarantee that not one single thing will happen. You see we had sex three times in a week while we were on vacation last week..... i guess we are home now so back to the OLD routine. I am still in the "bait and switch" bs. He shows me what our life could be like and then yanks it all away. Here is what you could have IF I CHOOSE to let you that is.....
