1st - cac4, HOM is "holding onto myself" - in my situation, it means staying calm and reasonable during our arguments, telling myself when she rejects me that it's her loss, etc.
2nd - we didn't have the talk last night, as we were, predictably, busy. But she was nicer, seemed even a bit more relaxed around me. Still, when we were laying in bed and I put my hand on her hip, she immediately removed it, saying "too hot." And she said in her email she's not pushing me away. Can she not realize that when she does these "hand removals" that I believe that equals "pushing away"? When I feel as if I can't touch her without getting my hand moved by her, uhhhh, that to me is clearly "pushing away." I guess I need to clarify that for her.
