Here's my bit of weirdness from last night: I went to bed around 10pm, left W watching TV. She came to be at about 12midnight, and said, "How's your girlfriend?" Huh? WTF? H: I don't have a girlfriend. W: You must be going bonkers, then. H: Why do you say that? W: Because I read an article today about men, and that, on average, they think about sex 60 times a day. H: Uh, that's about right, I guess.
Understand that I was deep into sleep when she came in, and, although the subject was very interesting to me, I wasn't ready to engage in the conversation in my present state. There was no discussion after this, and soon, I heard her snoring quietly.
Now, I really want to continue the conversation! Yes, I am going bonkers, but it's not because I'm thinking about sex...I am feeling emotionally isolated from you because I love you, and you keep pushing me away. I don't want a girlfriend, or an affair, because it's against my moral "code." But I also won't live my life out in a celibate marriage, because, why would I want to live with someone who doesn't appear to desire me, and who doesn't respect my wishes?
And what article was she reading? And why? Heck, I gave her a book that describes exactly how I feel, and she only read the parts that describe what I am doing wrong (TSSM).
Maybe I'll see if she's available for lunch today.
