And I envy you...I did get H to go on a walk a few weeks ago, if you read back far enough, you'll find my reference - it was really quite comic, H running ahead and stopping to wait for me like a little soldier...I made the mistake of asking if he wouldn't start cleaning the street and everything else on the next walk and give me the impression he wanted to be with me, we haven't taken a walk since
But this isn't doing any good. I don't like this funk I'm in...I need to find my way out, and I'm not doing very well. It's like H and I are dancing round in circles...I'm looking for the door in, and keep bouncing off the walls. I'm doing ok at deflecting, but I need to go forward.
A big part of the problem is that we are not home together - or when we are, one or the other of us seems to be sleeping. D8 now seems to be having problems at school - social and academic - and I think a lot of it has to do with lack of sleep. At least H is willing to admit that we do have to find a way to do things differently...but I need to come up with a new job a lot closer to home, which would solve a lot of problems.
