Yeah, I know not having a concrete plan wasn't such a good idea...
Actually, I do know basically what we pay for housing per month, and I buy 90% of the food...asking H what he makes is like pulling teeth (as I mentioned earlier, a ridiculously high number of Finnish women have no idea what their S earns!!!!)
But all of this stuff is pretty clearly laid out, so it is partly my fault that I don't just check up (like I did this morning). It's almost more a symbolic thing that H controls all the money, knows exactly what I spend on everything, and keeps it to himself, so that I think I'm well within our budget, and he throughs out that we have no money for the next two weeks. Yet, he spends quite a bit on his hobbies...
He doesn't really cut me off, but I don't feel equal.
And yes, a good few hours of lovin would probably heal a lot. 'Just' huggin and kissin ain't enough at this point...
