Z - A few thoughts: First - if you stopped your antidepressants abruptly, instead of weaning off of them slowly, you might need to go back on them at a low dose and transition off more slowly. Second, many people need them for up to three years for an episodic depression, and some people do indeed need them for life (I'm guessing my H might be one of the latter, as problems he has had all h9s life since his teens were lifted when he finally took them.)
Third, if you really don't want to go back on them, consider trying all the natural methods you can to improve your mood: - get a lightbox or a dawn-simulating alarm clock - these can be helpful even for non-seasonal depression - take some fish oil, B-complex vitamins, a multivitamin, vitamin E, on a regular basis - exercise 3 days a week - shown in some studies to be as good as antidepressants (I don't quite believe it's THAT good, but it DOES help)
