Hello, all! Whew, we had a busy week at work getting ready for this week, which is an incredibly busy week. I am exhausted and it's only day two. (My work week started on Sunday this week.) In a way it's nice to be busy, but I really am tired.
He's been acting down and annoyed lately. I suppose that it's because my work schedule has been like the bad ole' days. I come home, collapse on the couch and have no energy to talk, much less take an interest in anything at home. I initiated a talk about it by asking him if he really wanted to move home. Of course, he had to say "I just think it's the right thing to do." That made me feel special... not!
We talked a bit about how we still haven't resolved anything, and I still didn't get a specific answer on what exactly needs to be resolved. He said we're just different. I talked about being complementary and the strength of having differences. I even told him that soul mates have differences too. He wouldn't believe me, so I finally unloaded my deepest darkest secret... that I've been keeping from him for years. I know about soul mates, because my late H had been mine. He didn't get as upset as I thought he would at this revelation. He accepted that soul mates must be very rare, but didn't seem to want to believe that I had had one. I told him I couldn't explain how I knew, but I knew, both my late-H and I knew.
The conversation changed when I told him that I truly wished he could meet his soul mate. He said that it would be awkward to meet his soul mate when he was married to me. I just said that if he met his soul mate he'd just have to not be married to me. From there things got mushy... essentially we talked about how much we love each other and how fortunate we feel to have each other. It was really very sweet. We held each other for a long time. He said I was the best thing that had ever happened to him. I told him that I felt like I was a better person for knowing him. You get the gist.
He got more specific about his move late last night, and asked if I could collect boxes for him. He doesn't know I've been saving them for him for weeks. Ciao! --z
