Sorry you ended up here on this message board. I saw your post in the other thread and believe a couple of people responded. Some very good advice there. Obviously your sitch didn't develop overnight and it certainly isn't going to get resolved overnight either. Calm down and try to breathe. Maybe read TSSM again, slower, and get The Passionate Marriage and read that. If you are unhappy with your C, find another one. Did the C give you any advice?